YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT APPROVAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep thats right. This is the happy go lucky . Post Ive been waiting to post.

Yep Yep. I got a letter in the mail yesterday, But was on my way to work so wasnt able to call. But I called her this morning. And she said shes left me a bunch of messages. But yep yep. I have a surgery date.

April 26th.

Funny thing is its also my 7 year aniversary with my hubby. At least well still have our wedding aniversary this year to celebrate.

I have a couple more test. But there more for pretesting then anything. So YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I hate waiting......

Not sure if I ever said that here or not . But its the truth. I really hate waiting. I was never good at the waiting game. And REALLY hate surprises. I like to know whats going on at the moment I want to know. I know thats me living in a dream world. But hey. Its my world. So as I continue to wait for insurance approval . I grow more and more worried. If thats even possiable. I know she said that it would take like 2 weeks but this flat out sucks.

On a possitive note.With me not getting everything in till pretty much the start of this month. I am looking at the 2nd week of april for the surgery. Which is really good because even though my boss is working with me on the dates. Alot of people are trying to take off this month so with me not needing till april it will/is making her a happier boss. At least where Im concernd.

So Ill continue to wait....... Unhappily

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Wow I cant believe that its been over a week since I posted last.

Guess you can say that life has been intresting.

The apt with the sleep apnea doctor went well. We talked about why I was there and about everything I have experanced or been told about my sleep. He is pretty sure that I have it. But I will have to go for a sleep study befor I know for sure. But he did give me a test to make sure I didnt have anything like ashma or what not.

Ate alot of greesy food last weekend. Ill never make that mistake again. Even if I wasnt hopefully getting this surgery I would never do it again. I think I was sick for the first half of the week.

I also had my Physc eval last tuesday. It went really good. I did find out that almost everyone that goes trew this surgery gets depression after it. And in my mothers line of my family we already have depression running trew us. so yea I have two fallow up apts to just make sure Im doing pretty good after the surgery. And if I need to get on meds then thats what Ill do to do this the right way .

Is that something correct to say about having surgery? Doing it the right way? Is surgery the healtly way? or is it a cop out? Im still torn about this. For years I tried the whole diets, gyms and everything I could think of. I thought that was the healthy way. And I still feel that the surgery is a cop out. Even with all of the hard work I have already started and all the hard work Ill have to do. But in the end . I guess it dosnt even matter as long as I get Healthy. To me thats the only thing that matters.

But on the good news. I have finally turned everything in. Now I think  is the crappy part. The Waiting. The lady told me with the insurance I have , That Im looking up to 2 weeks of waiting. At most a week. YAY for waiting. But I am hoping that Ill hear sometime this week. Once I have a date things will be so much eaiser with work and hubby and everything else I have to plan around this . Not saying that its not worth it just alot goes into this.

I can honestly say that the nerves are kicking in. A mixture of nervous because the only other surgery I had was my tonsiles removal. But Im more scared of not getting approved. Because if I dont get approved I dont know what Im going to do. I have tried everything I can think to lose this weight.

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I DID IT!!!!

 I went trew a Entire week of nothing but Vday Celebrations and My sons Bday and all the sweets I had were a couple of choc coverd strawberrys . And 1 peiece of choc cake he got.

I am Freakishly proud of myself.

Ok so maybe , Just maybe I had a bite , 1 bite , of his brownie from his bday dinner at Texas Road House.

I did on the other hand have a large Peach Marigita.

I have my Sleep Apniea Apt today. Pretty sure its just the consult but other then that I dont have a clue.

Tonight my lil family is going out to this GREAT lil italian place about 30 mins from here. I plan on having there great fride chic , were getting a pizza to go and Im going to get a small contain of their great icecream to bring home.

So yea. At least I know what Im getting. I know none of its healty for me but still. I know Ill never be eating it again.

Since Im comfy on the couch with Hubby and son I wont be getting up to go weigh myself. But I will put up a picture of me from last night.
Hope you enjoy

I think it is finally time to say goodbye to a dear dear friend that has been with me my entire life.

Goodbye Fast Food. How I will miss thee.

Even though it is sad. The reward will be so much greater.

Now there are foods that Ill probly never be able to say goodbye to. Like junk food but at sit down places.... Does that make sense? Not sure if it does or not. I have eatten all but one of the places I wanted to on my Fast food place... Well actually two . Sonic and Dairy Queen. I am torn between wanting to be just done with fast food all together and eating at these two places one last time. I think Ill give into temptation and eat there. But after that . It will be no more.

Which is good for me. Because to tell the turth. I havnt even wanted fast food. Hubbys going trew some stuff right now and hasnt been able to eat real food . So today I ran trew Burger king. Got him a Large , And I mean LARGE, meal but didnt even want to order myself anything. I do have to say this is a improvement. There will always be the temptation, More so when I go to the places for the little one and hubby but I know Im strong enough.

I baught a new notebook today. I plan on starting my Food Journal all over again. And on the cover is a 3D type picture of Wounder Woman. I thought it would be nice motavation . Because in the end. I am Wonder Woman. I can and will do everything... Even give up Junk Food. Fast Food. And anything Not healtly for me.

258...... Alots been going on this week along with ALOT of Fast Food eating on my part. I vow not to eat at Sonic or D.Q. Untill I have my surgury date......

Been thinking about this post for the past couple days. I know I need to sit down and write out the reasons Im doing this. And I plan to . Just not sure when that plan will be placed into action.

But tonights posting is about something everyone loves.

Food.

Yep yep This is my offical "Eat once more befor I have surgery" list.

Ok so maybe the title isnt the greatest but hey. Give me some credit. I just thought of that.

Alright so here I go

Cracker Barrel ( MMMMM what more can I say)
BBK (Double whopper and Fries)
Jack Creak ( Their homemade butter and Fajitas MMM MM )
SONIC (I could eat their every day)
My Place ( Its this really good Italian place up here )

Im pretty sure thats it. Theres alot of others that Im going to miss. But none that Im setting out to plan to eat befor the DDay.

I have had A few things in like the last month or two but not too bad.

Im not sure if Ill get to have these things but hey. Its worth a shot right? But I know when it comes down to it. All these things I can live without. Believe it or not Im not a big fast food person. Yes granted I dont always make the best choices when it comes to food all the times, But I dont eat junk all day.

Alrighty thats all for the food talk for now befor I get hungry.

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I do have to say sorry.... My last posting something happend and it posted without my weight. So to start this one off Ill post my weight first instead of last like every other one . And as a extra special gift A photo. But youll have to wait till the end for that.

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Life has been calm. Havnt really been going out and eating and havnt had the money or desire to eat anything sugary or gressy. Ok Saterday night a bunch of people and hubby went out after work and then after that we went to Dennys and I got Nachos. Something I always seem to want when I drink. Which by the way.... Is not very often.

But I figured that will all the dancing I was doing . I was burning off the amount of calories I was intaking with the 5 drinks and the half of plate of nachos.

My sons 6th Birthday is coming up. Which is making me feel REALLY old. And with a kids bday brings lots of foods and cakes and all that good stuff. But I have made the choice to not make or bye a cake this year. Hubby dosnt really like cake and I dont need one. So what were going to be doing is taking his out to eat at two diffrent places. On diffrent weeks and were going to have the staff sing to him and that way he can have plenty of cake. It should be fun.

Im getting nervous about my next apt on the 19th. Its my sleep Apnea test. And Deep down I have a feeling I know its true that I have it but part of me dosnt want it. But if I do have it then that will help with my insurance Aproval.

Alright so here it goes. Just remember I dont take the best pictures and I work at a gas station. This was on Xmas eve 2009 . Haha You wont be getting any new pics any time soon. Sorry