Wow I cant believe that its been over a week since I posted last.

Guess you can say that life has been intresting.

The apt with the sleep apnea doctor went well. We talked about why I was there and about everything I have experanced or been told about my sleep. He is pretty sure that I have it. But I will have to go for a sleep study befor I know for sure. But he did give me a test to make sure I didnt have anything like ashma or what not.

Ate alot of greesy food last weekend. Ill never make that mistake again. Even if I wasnt hopefully getting this surgery I would never do it again. I think I was sick for the first half of the week.

I also had my Physc eval last tuesday. It went really good. I did find out that almost everyone that goes trew this surgery gets depression after it. And in my mothers line of my family we already have depression running trew us. so yea I have two fallow up apts to just make sure Im doing pretty good after the surgery. And if I need to get on meds then thats what Ill do to do this the right way .

Is that something correct to say about having surgery? Doing it the right way? Is surgery the healtly way? or is it a cop out? Im still torn about this. For years I tried the whole diets, gyms and everything I could think of. I thought that was the healthy way. And I still feel that the surgery is a cop out. Even with all of the hard work I have already started and all the hard work Ill have to do. But in the end . I guess it dosnt even matter as long as I get Healthy. To me thats the only thing that matters.

But on the good news. I have finally turned everything in. Now I think  is the crappy part. The Waiting. The lady told me with the insurance I have , That Im looking up to 2 weeks of waiting. At most a week. YAY for waiting. But I am hoping that Ill hear sometime this week. Once I have a date things will be so much eaiser with work and hubby and everything else I have to plan around this . Not saying that its not worth it just alot goes into this.

I can honestly say that the nerves are kicking in. A mixture of nervous because the only other surgery I had was my tonsiles removal. But Im more scared of not getting approved. Because if I dont get approved I dont know what Im going to do. I have tried everything I can think to lose this weight.

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